feeling used
maybe cause ive been abused
with cuts my skin is bruised

i lay down, weeping
and watch my cuts bleeding
my sorrows are just seeding

u ask y i inflict this pain upon me
and i tell u that pysical pain sets me free
for emotional torture send my soul on a hellish spree

void and emotionless
my souls lays boken
dead and hopless
my spirit surrenders

i know not if happiness is meant for me
it has been stolen too often for me to believe
my faith has now my spirit cant see
but the devil still wont let me be

i beg to be forgotten
let me be free from this pain
kill me and let my body rooten
as staying alive shall bring no gain

[[*-purfect but unpurrfect world-*]]
4:01 AM



every step that i take
is another misake
sad even while cutting my birthday cake
why am i alive.. for whos sake?!

often i end up feeling bleak
an my tears continue to leak
idont know what it is that i seek
but everyday im left weak

feel like death is the way out
wanna shut me in a room an just shout
cant figure out what this life is about
everything is just another doubt

left in the darkness
surrounded be sadness
being driving to madness
maybe suicide will gimme gladness

just wanna end it all
its not like life is a ball
sitting around waiting for luck to call
but death is written on the wall

im scared of living now
i hafta continue but how?
nothing that can make say wow
once more my head i bow

it comes akk to the same thing
pills an the stupid cutting
feel like a bird with a broken wing
so restricted i dont wanna sing

dont know where this is gonna go
im just feeeling really low
theres nothing more i wanna know
cause i ve seen thw orst life can show

one mistake after another
dont know y i even bother
my neck i wanna smother

perhaps death would be good
not make me feel like a peice of wood
i feel like im covered by a black hood
dun remember how or where i stood

just wanna scream real loud
so i dont feel so bound
feelin lonely in a crowd

i shud finally stop living
life hasnt been very giving
sick of ppl who keep fibbing
its really low im dipping

wanna bleed
a discarded seed
a useless weed
im just a faltu breed

im wastimg tine here
shouldnt be anywhere
i dunno if i even care
cause now its too much too bear

kill me fast
i dont wanna last
im not having a blast
the pain is too vast

[[*-purfect but unpurrfect world-*]]
4:28 PM



crying in your arms
i feel so shattered inside
all i wanted was to be in your arms
but life wont let me stay by your side

my heart bleeds
as i realize this will be the lst meet
my soul weeps
not wanting this to be the final meet

you dont know how i love you
without u i cant survive
u dont belive when i say i luv u
but my heart will not revive

why cant i have the one i love
y duz life play games wid my heart
making me fall in love
wen its ill fated from the start

i luv u like iv never done before
and probably wont again
now my heart will forever be sore
and i wont wall in love again

the tears pour down my cheeks
and u wipe them with ur thumb
unable to bear it wen my eyes leak
but my heart is already numb

shattered and broken
my love is a mere feeling
not even worth a token
i pray while kneeling

nothing is going right
nothing ever does
my life was never bright
full of broken doves

i just wanna stop living
dunno wats stopping me
y am i still breathing
theres no other way i can see

ill slash my wrist
and go back to those pills
around my neck a rope shall twist
which is fatal: it kills

[[*-purfect but unpurrfect world-*]]
3:07 AM



Vivid images of hell
Skip through my head
What kind of a future o they spell?
I wonder while laying in my bed

Each day I resolve to change
And try my best do achieve my goals
Which lie in a wide range;
Only to realize its like trying to have my feet on both poles

I feel lonely in a crowd
My heart bleeds with pain
But I live on as I have vowed
To accomplish ur dreams even if it makes me insane

I’ve started living for u
In hopes of surviving
And making it through
But my life is wavering

My life passes by me
Slipping so fast I cant catch it
My eyes are blurred; I cant see
It is myself who I hit

I fall again and again
Unable to pick myself up
I let my tears mix with the rain
And u watch sipping tea from your cup

Those cold eyes. That blatant gaze
Have haunted my life
And turned it into an un-solvable maze
So once again I resort to my knife

Cut after cut
I tear relentlessly
Trying to rip out my guts
I cry shamelessly

My life has gone
The spirit in me vanished
I wish I hadn’t been born
Just to be tarnished

My hopes and fears are meaningless
U look at them carelessly
As if I am soulless
Which is what I am precisely

[[*-purfect but unpurrfect world-*]]
5:31 AM



You’ve killed my desire to live
There’s nothing I have left to give
Its too late to save me now
My heart shall rip and the pain will grow
The restrictions you impose upon me
Have destroyed the person I could be
Everyday brings more sadness
Soon ill be driven to madness
My soul shall die from this insane torture
And my spirit a demon shall capture
I am left weak and defenseless
My mind is tired and senseless
I keep wishing I had not been born
Because life is like the tip of a sharp thorn
My heart is bleeding
My soul is weeping
I have realized that love is mythical
And that my actions are considered unethical
You wish I wud stop writing depressing lines
But they alone free me from tangled vines
Every moment I wish to die
I wish I could just say goodbye

[[*-purfect but unpurrfect world-*]]
5:07 AM



You take it, and you take it
And you learn,
You learn all too well,
So that later, when there's nobody to dish it out,
You can punch yourself in the gut
And take it some more.

The best part is,
With training and practice,
You learn your own soft spots and weaknesses,
So that you become your own best tormentor.

Double up over the pain and swallow.
It'll still be there tomorrow,
Waiting for you.

[[*-purfect but unpurrfect world-*]]
5:22 AM



take thiS razor and sign
your name across my wrist'
so everyone will know who
left me like this.

So next time when you look at my wrist and say
nobody in this world thinks about you, you can
remember - i do.

Although I mite act like it doesnt hurt..
Your words cut me deeper then any of my knives..

These bandages cover more than scrapeS .
cuts and bruises from regrets and mistakes

what'd you expect.. a perfect child?
With pretty scars all over my wrists,
im sorry, i didn't mean to hurt you..

Now that I've felt this way it seems as if forever,
pain or love no longer efect me.
After being hurt so many times I feel almost nothing,
and the funny thing about is, most of those times
I was the one who hurt myself.

I'm staring down at the scars I have,
the scars that you left me with..

Yeah i gotta scar i can talk about..
in fact, i have many.

When I wake up alone, the shades are still drawn
on the cold window pane so they cast
their lines on my bed and lines on my face.

I feel like hanging myself with a barbed rope,
on the tallest and shadiest tree,
swinging from left to right,
with a smile on my face.
I hope you are happy now..

I'm not getting over you...
I'm just getting used to the pain

i'd rather bleed with cuts of love
then live without any scars

So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
So I can fall asleep tonite and die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

suicide.... giving hopeless people hope

Suicide is just one person escapingG
the world without even getting backk
at the people that made her kill herself~

so cut my wrists and black my eyes .
so i can fall asleep 2nite nd die'
bcuz u kill me. . . u kno u do
. . . y o u k i l l m e w e l l . . .
u like it too nd` i can can tell
ull nev stop until mi final breath is
x gone..

let the blood run down your arms
then try and tell me everything's okay

I never thought it would end like this
you will never know the damage you
have caused everytime you said you
loved her ii just bleed harder i will still
Love you ii would take a GUN to my`
head for you, your everything to me'
i hate all of this, why can't this stop?'
it`s qettinq louder now make it stop!.'
i want to die, why cant it be sooner*
why must ii wait? i`m falliinq apart...
without you... iif ONLY you knew
if only you knew... you will never
`know..the damage you`ve done..

i took the blade
and put it close to my chin
and knew it was what i had to do
i said good buy to my kin
and decided to leave this world
i will miss everyone
my family my friends everything

[[*-purfect but unpurrfect world-*]]
5:16 AM



Each day is like the last,
The ever repeating past,
Never relenting,
Always preventing,
What happiness really meant.
Just one day, my wish would be,
To climb aboard a boat,
To sail away and be free.
But dark clouds block my way,
Forcing me to stay,
When the dark clouds fade away,
Revealing the new day,
Something deep inside,
Still brings me to a lonesome sigh.
The secret I posses,
That fills me with distress,
To hard to live on,
To hard to be strong,
But not anymore,
I refuse, to fight this war,
The short-lived happy times, is what I cry out for.
The future comes into focus,
And with that unfolds a plan,
To sail away on a boat,
To a far away land.
Sailing away is my way out,
Sailing away is just a word I use to lie about,
Sailing away is just another cover,
So people will not notice, and discover.
Sailing away is my suicide,
That has a hidden meaning deep down inside,
While the waves calm, and begin to yield,
My heart starts to unwind, and heal.
Now for miles the sea is calm,
No more chains, to hold me down.
No more pain, will come around.
From this day forward,
I will be found in the sea,
Sailing the constant waters,
Living free.

[[*-purfect but unpurrfect world-*]]
1:37 AM